For several years I’ve struggled with one of the simplest things in the world. Eating. Everyone has their inner demons and mine chose to manifest in my head as me being disgusting and fat and ugly. I didn’t understand why I was this way. I didn’t know how to deal with it. I was constantly ashamed of how I looked and how I thought. I want to be thin. I want to be pretty. Everyone I told tried to “cure” me. Like I was sick, like I was a disease that they could catch from just being by me. It took me years to realise that’s I was not sick or diseased. I was human. I made a decision to not be afraid of a disorder. To not be afraid of myself. I didn’t chose fear which made me appreciate my family and our travels. It enspired my love of exploration every time we go to a new place like China or Scotland. I wasn’t just happy every time I’d go to Disney. I was happy at home, with my family, with my friends.
My struggles have made me who I am today. Although those struggles have been horrible and more than the average person, I genuinely don’t think I’d trade them for anything. They help me to help more people who have struggles with the same types of things that I have. I am still a dancer. I am still a performer. I am still a Disney nerd. I am still world explorer. This is me. I’m quirky and gullible. I’ve been broken down and beaten but, I am alive.
Favorite part of working with PAT+CASSIE:
The individual freedom I was able to experience during the session. It was tailored to me and what I could do.